This Is Nothing

(…but what I deserve)

I’m going to die
And I’m glad I’ll die forgiven
Glad for the relief
I took more than what I was given

I gluttonized
I scratched my every itch
It kept my mind away
It kept the wounds all stitched

But this is nothing
This is nothing
This is nothing
But what I deserve

Such a depth of darkness
So perfectly alone
And uncomprehending
Of what to do to be reborn

That lack of love
Maybe I was always dead
But I want to live
To smile when I look ahead